Jialin ♥

Hi.

2012-02-08T17:41:00.000+08:00

I've changed a new blog layout, i hope it is nice.

Anyway, this is random, but 10 is a lucky number to me. :)

2012-02-06T13:30:00.002+08:00

Hey, this is for you. Might be a surprise. Wad i wanna say is that, i am still holding on to the 0% percent that we can get back together. You are the best. If i have to choose between freedom and you, i will choose freedom over you. You claim that you no longer have any feelings towards me. But when you face me, will you feel the same? I don`t know wad came into you and made you so stubborn. I was shock to see how stubborn you were this time. If time could rewind, i will never have left you. If only ..

You don`t have to feel guilty. Because i knew this was gonna come sooner or later. Because i failed as a boyfriend. I took you for granted, and i lost you. I learned alot while you were gone this period. And if we ever got back together, i will never take back my foot step and will never take you for granted. I treated a diamond as rock. I know its too late for all this. But everyone deserve a second chance don`t they? Why won`t you give it a try? Things might work out just fine for us? And if things don`t work out, i will let you go and we will be friends. I hope you agree to this. I hope this will touched your heart my dear.

Yours truly, Shawn. <3

Goodbye.

2012-02-06T00:23:00.002+08:00

I don't know whether you will see this or not, it all depends on fate and whether you still care about me or not. I know sorry will not heal your wound, but still, i owe you a big sorry. I need you to get over and move on. I'm sorry that i couldn't walk till the end with you. I really don't want to lie to ourselves anymore. But you were the best boyf ever. You really understood me and willing to listen to me whining about anything. You would be there when i'm afraid or stressed up. You really did everything you could as a boyf, i'm the one who is not good enough for you. I'm sorry for being so stubborn for the first and the last time, but we could not turn back the time. It's too late, there's no way we could get back to the past and i couldn't get back my feelings. We need to move on and stop relying on each other. I wish you all the best. Please move on, fast or slowly also can, otherwise you will make me feel more guilty. Once again, i'm sorry.

I give you back your freedom; remember to 比我幸福.

Short Update

2012-01-26T19:22:00.002+08:00

Chinese new year passed like nobody's business. As usual, got angpao, eat, gain weight, etc. Nice one. Going out for movie at night with baby. We spend money like there's no tomorrow whenever we got money. HEHE. I know we damn rabak, don't know how to control money, but what to do? So used to it alr. I've to admit that i'm influenced in a bad way by this boy! Sad to say so but yah, no choice, i don't know why he can't learn the good things from me, yet i'm learning all the bad things from him, inevitably. Tsk. Okay shall end here. I'm a hungry bitch now!

Simple VS Dramatic

2012-01-16T03:11:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wonder that you would prefer a simple life or a dramatic one? Sometimes, I wish that my life could be more happening as it would bring more joy. Yet, I wish my life could be simple and peaceful. Contradicting? Haha. A dramatic one would be more memorable, but sometimes thing might not turn out the way we one. On the other hand, peaceful life can be boring but it will be more comforting, as in like things just go on smoothly like everyday. Ok shall end this crap, only making me to anyhow think.

Shall update my life now! Here it goes. I'm currently still waiting for result and i swear whenever i think of it, i will tremble. I know i wouldn't do well, shall just stop thinking. Ok, next, i'm kinda like trying to imaging that baby is not by my side, every dinner without him etc, because he will be going to serve the nation real soon. I admit i'm sad and i'd like to wish baby good luck, hope the result of his interview is the result he wants although i don't know what he wants. Hopefully, he will not go in during march in-take.

Okay i suddenly thought of this now. When we were babies, we are troubled by toys, as in we always want to have many toys. When we grow older, we began to be troubled by studies. Then, when we are in middle age, we are troubled by $$$. And a bit older, we are troubled by marriage and our own family. Finally, when we're old, we're troubled by death, both our own and our partner's death. So basically, everybody are troubled. That's why we are human.

HEHEHEHEH. Shall end here and i've got nothing to do now. I'm not sleepy too. :X

Hello boy

2012-01-16T02:58:00.001+08:00

You're important to me, i swear. <3

〔MV〕郁可唯微加幸福

2012-01-09T21:31:00.000+08:00

Great song indeed!

2012-01-09T21:20:00.002+08:00

I like the lyrics so much though i couldn't understand much during the first time listening to this song. Nice song, great lyrics, perfect. :D Although some words i still don't really understand, but can roughly guess and the lyrics is so meaningful.

微加幸福 (Micro Plus Happiness)

2012-01-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

城市像一座迷宫但我不服
谁说一个人不能走出
与你相爱迷糊让步到你退出
再多分岔路回忆很清楚我慢慢重组

每一天我和我的影子散步
在朋友面前坚持不哭
曾经他们和我一样相信幸福
这一刻孤独赖在房里住
我怎么驱逐

怎么在爱里微加幸福
少一点自由就变负
太多了你说我的关心是一种束缚
怎么在爱里微加幸福
太多的微笑也比不上一滴眼泪的苦
无心犯的错

每一天我和我的影子散步
在朋友面前坚持不哭
曾经他们和我一样相信幸福
一次的痛哭换一次领悟
我就能走出

怎么在爱里微加幸福
少一点自由就变负
太多了你说我的关心是一种束缚
怎么在爱里微加幸福
太多的微笑也比不上一滴眼泪的苦
无心犯的错误

从一开始的陌生到后来沉默无声
谁能想像我们当初爱那么深
想假装你是路人
想再一次变陌生
但我爱过你我承认

怎么在爱里微加幸福
少一点自由就变负
太多的你说我的关心是一种束缚
怎么在爱里微加幸福
再多的微笑也比不上一滴眼泪的苦
无心犯的错误

是谁犯的错误
你也不在乎

Welcome back

2011-12-30T19:48:00.003+08:00

Wow, it has been a super long time since i last used blogger, right? I've come back because i'm kinda interested in learning back about how to edit blogskin. I've no idea how to edit the html of tumblr, though i think it might be the same. Ok lah, tumblr will be more about reblogging and this blog is more about my daily life. Hm, shall update again if 2012 New Year is a great one for me. BYE! :D

2010-10-02T18:44:00.002+08:00

It has been a super long time since i last blog. Although i have been asking myself to blog, but it's either i forget to or i'm lazy. Haha. I didn't really like use my msn alr. Whenever i'm online, it will be facebook, email, youtube? Haha. Next week H2 exam. Now trying my best to finish studying. Although i will like pick out some parts to study. It's like impossible to study finish. I feel that the promo is like so rush? Teacher just done teaching then promo. It's no longer like in secondary school, whereby teacher will let you do tons of revision just for a exam. Now is "you ownself do revision". And it's a must to do so. Because the exam will be very difficult (if can pass, is good enough) and everyone will study very hard for it :O

So far all the H1 paper, all like gone-case for me. I don't want to retain. I want faster complete jc life. OHHHH. NOTHING TO WRITE ALR. BYE.

ps: i love babypek.

2010-06-02T22:52:00.003+08:00

Okay lah, joking only. Hm.
Really lazy to type eh.
You hor, indirectly forced people to type a long one.
Songpeeh, our one year anniversary coming hor!
Seems so fast uh. Last year we were still like friends only.
Hahaha. Stupid boy, gaowei leh you.
I love you.
Just now that msg is from my heart.
I don't know why, but just can't send to you.
Too bad then, haha.
Lazy lazy, i shall end here baby!

2010-06-02T22:50:00.001+08:00

Baby ah, i'm lazy to post a long long one for you :D
That's all, i shall end here.
I love you.

2010-05-03T12:17:00.002+08:00

Baby, i guess you have been waiting for me to post hor! As previously our relationship seems unstable, like small little thing then we will quarrel about it. Thus, i didn't want to blog. But yesterday, i feel so love eh, hence i decided to post about it. Haha, it's our first time going to zoo together! Took so many photos hor! But mostly, or i can say all except 5 (roughly) out of the many photos are animals. We should have hired a photographer to help us take photos leh. Baby, where is our next outing? Hahahaha. Oh baby, tomorrow is our 11 months. Are you excited? You ah, tonight must sleep early. Don't always wait for me to do finish my homework ok. Baby, later i want go fetch you! So long didn't go alr, haha. But not longer than you. At least that time tuesday i did make my way down to tampiness hor. Lol. Who ask you study so far away from me.

Baby, i love you.
040609.
Forever our love will go on. <3

2010-04-10T23:36:00.004+08:00

Not bad eh, i still update my blog monthly. :D
Baby going to start school soon, yeeshien also.
Hmm, school work is a lot, everyday chiong last min.
Homeworks are like never ending.
Lol, lynn said that one day, we will need to bring luggage to school.
*to put all of our homeworks*

Baby is sleeping now.
I think i can't sleep luh, stomach cramp, argh.
Anyway, baby, i think i'm loving you more and more. :x
Don't ask me why, ask my heart. :D

2010-03-24T03:06:00.001+08:00

baby, our 10 months coming soon!
next week, so fast uh!
finally find back our feelings luh.
so glad eh. although i still don't know why/how it lost.
but nvm, now everything is back like last time.
shuang hor, baby you now holiday.
i still have to go school eh. ):

our love,
i'll definitely want to be with you forever.
<3

2010-03-15T20:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, things just aren't going the way like how it should be. I know you tried so much to hold on our love. Whatever you've done, I can see. But can you see what I've done. Am I right to say you always think you're right and I'm wrong. It is not possible for a relationship to last if only one person is holding on to it. So do you understand what I mean. I know you hate the way i do things, but try standing in my shoes. If you were me, you will know. You see friends as one of your top priorities. So how you want me to tell you. The reason why I didn't say this to you is because I just don't know how to say it out. You'd say "just say lah, very difficult to say out meh?" I just feel that it is getting harder and harder for me to tell you how I feel. For example just now, I told you I don't know how to do the homework, got headache luh. The Shawn I knew would come to my side and help me massage, and say "baby very guai, got study". But the Shawn now will just tell me "go rest luh". Do you know how cold it is? Continue to scold me, if you like it. I miss my shawn baby. :(

2010-02-10T16:56:00.002+08:00

Changed a new blogskin.
Didn't attend school for yesterday and today.
Due to my stupid stomach cramp.
Just now better luh, now cramp again eh.
Not sure tomorrow can go school or not.
Chinese new year is coming!
And after cny, lessons will start.
I will study hard uh. :)
Must do very well and get into the course i want.
Can't wait for the lessons to start eh. :)
Hopefully i will be able to cope with the subject i'm taking.
Baby, must study hard too hor.
I know you can do it uh.

Shawnshawn, i love you.
<3

2010-01-19T02:00:00.001+08:00

Baby, are you missing me now, or are you sleeping now?
I'm missing you badly, can't seem to fall asleep at all.
Haha, yesterday night was fun.
We were using comp and we actually went to friendster.
Don't know how long didn't touch friendster alr hor.
Argh, baby tahan a bit more.
We shall go buy our bags and shopping! :D
Must split two days shopping. -.-
One day for you, one day for me.
You lah xiao ma fan super troublesome eh.
Die also want go town shop.
Alright baby, must wake up and go to school ok.
Confirm needs sweeleong to wake you up.
You won't auto wake up, always need ppl to wake you.
Study hard okay baby & rest well.
I love you. <3

2010-01-15T03:20:00.003+08:00

baby ah baby.
luckily secion head helped you uh.
must really thanks her and study hard.
be good boy and go for all the lessons.
also take care of your eyes.
doctor asked you not to put on contact lens.
see, don't want to listen uh.

okay, update about my life now.
yesterday went to PCF work eh.
although earned very little but nvm ah.
bought ulti, then baby say me. :x
i guess he's still waiting for me to buy the bag together w him.

my dearest baby, aka xiao ma fan.
i trust you okay, don't go flirt around in school uh.
although i know you won't. :D
baby, thanks for everything.
your shoulder there for me to lean on.
your hands there to hold me through.
thanks for being by my side when i'm down.
you've brighten up my life uh.
I LOVE YOU BABY. :D

Baby, happy 7 month!

2010-01-04T15:00:00.003+08:00

Omg omg omg!
Super excite uh. :D
Baby got a call from someone eh.
She told baby he'll be interviewed tomorrow for the course.
Best lah, confirm get in one.
Baby, hope you'll be able to pass the interview uh.
Hair fashion & design, Shawn's coming. :P

*specially posted & open this blog for baby*

Today is our 7 month baby.
All the good things are coming.
Yay. Movie tonight. Great!

2009-12-26T18:41:00.002+08:00

Wow.
I'm like posting once in every month.
Blog rot till like don't know what.
Baby just got his result.
He can go to many courses eh.
But he didn't register online. -.-
Hopefully he'd be managed to go into hair fashion & design.
Baby good luck ah. :D

Our 7 month coming soon! <3

2009-11-15T18:01:00.003+08:00

Baby baby.
Finally our exams are over.
But soon we both will be going to work?
Then won't have much time together alr.
I'm currently at home.
Will be going back to your house on monday ok. :D
I'll remember to bring hoodie uh.

Baby, i really miss you so much eh.
The feelings are back, how about you?
Last night i thought back about that day when our ring were lost.
Although i felt sad, but after that day.
We've become so much closer.
From that day onwards, all the feelings is back.
Whenever i have things in my heart, i will tell you.
But hor, i miss the ring so much eh.
Never mind, our 6 months!
We shall get a new ring. :D

Baby, must sleep well tonight.
Tomorrow can meet alr.
I love you. <3

Happy 4 Months.

2009-10-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

Today is the worse quarrel ever.
Luckily i don't have enough strength eh.
If not baby's face will blueblack uh.
Sorry.

Baby, just called you, but you didn't answer.
Guess you're sleeping soundly now.
Wonder if you are alright.
Get well soon, I love you.

Welcome back.

2009-09-28T22:23:00.003+08:00

Finally back in blogger.
Os is in a few weeks time.
Everyday have to stay till 5.30/6.00 pm. :(

Baby, this part is for you.
Thanks for everything you've done for me.
You're the best alr.
I love your hand, your hug, your kiss.
Your smile, your shoulder, your cheers.
I love your everything ok.
This coming sunday will be our 4 months.
That's pretty fast right. :D
Everything is going fine uh!
No more quarrels, peace peace.
(L)

2009-09-20T21:52:00.002+08:00

男人, this post is for you.
We have been together for more than three months alr.
Time passes so fast hor, soon we'll be graduating from adss.
I wonder next year, will we be as close as how we are now?
We said will still meet everyday uh.
I will meet you everyday no matter what.
Unless really can't. But I'll try my very best. :D

Previously we have been quarrelling very often uh.
But now no more eh, the feeling is finally back. :D
Remember our promise, we will change to better ok.
Each time we quarrelled, it made me realise how deep i love you.
This few days we very sweet eh!
Finally, no more quarrels.
Baby, we used to walk pass each other.
But now, we are walking together.
Really glad to know you, really glad that you entered my life.
Thanks for all the love you have been showering to me. :D
Baby you are the sweetest uh.

PS:/ Take care of your ankle ah, I love you. <3

Forever.

2009-09-06T08:54:00.003+08:00

Baby!
Only you can come to read this blog eh.
You should feel happy hor.
Two days ago was our three month.
Let me write down what happened.
Then next time can read back.
Although i think everything will be remembered in our heart.

School as normal.
After school went to your house.
Rest rest, do the usual thing we'll do.
Then set off the cwp to watch movie!
Sorry leh baby you order the ticket again.
Watched "I love you, Beth Cooper".
Suggested by me!
The movie is nice hor.
After movie, we went back to slack.
Then at night my whole face turned white.
And you cooked cup noodle for me.
Feed me also eh. Sweetsweet baby.
Went out to ton at crescent.
Screen by police, my first time loh. -.-
After that went to your house sleep.
My stomach super pain.
But baby so sweet uh.
Went to take medicine for me.
Then feed me eat, after eating i can't sleep.
You hug me to sleep, seeing me sleep alr.
You then went down the bed and sleep by yourself.
Lol. Baby so good to me, i'm very touched!
We sleep for so long hor, sleep till next day 6 plus evening.
I can conclude one thing.
Once both of us fall asleep, confirm sleep till very late one.

Baby, in this three month.
We've went through a lot eh.
You cried 3 times for me! :D
First time is outside your house, you made me wait.
Second time is at your house, you accidentally hit my nose.
Third time is on the phone, i kept saying i wanna die. :x
Still got one time almost loh!
Is we quarrel at crescent there.
That is the first time we quarrel till very jialat hor.
We quarrelled because of a very small things.
You shouted at me in crescent.
But you shouted "you know how much i love you mah?"
Then we okay alr.
But next day morning quarrelled again.
You walked off without telling me.
Then outside school toilet also quarrel.
I cried in class eh, then i msg you "baby, i miss you".
Then okay alr. :D
Fast hor. After that no more quarrel.
Everytime almost quarrel, we both will give in.
Baby, thanks for everything.
I know you treat me very good.
You can even sacrifice your sleep for me. (:
Then we owe people $350.
I told you not to borrow from other ppl.
But i went around asking ppl for money.
In the end you found out sial.
Then i return back the money, and used my own money.
Baby, i don't need you to return me the money!
I rich girl hor. :D
Baby, promise alr ah, our 6 month we wear nice nice go town.
Can't wait for our exam to end leh.
Then we can go out enjoy ourselves!
Baby, yesterday night i very sweet hor.
I sang songs make you sleep.
But i "baby baby" then you wake up again.
Baby, after we knew each other, you've changed a lot uh.
But still as cute as last time, or even cuter alr!
Baby, you really treat me very good.
I will treat you better de!
I love you, my dearest baby!
My most precious baby!
We'll last forever k.
Our top promise. <3

Dirty boy; Clumsy boy; Cry baby.

2009-08-16T00:39:00.002+08:00

My baby is a dirty boy; clumsy boy; cry baby!

Why dirty?
Today morning i went to his house wake him up.
Cos he says he want meet me earlier.
Thus i kept pulling him from bed.
Guessed he was too happy to see me.
Because he woke up first person see is me. :D
Then he come kissed my cheek and forehead.
Then kissed my lip, wanting to lc too?
I said "baby ah, you haven't brush your teeth hor".
Thn he don't dare kiss alr. :x

Why clumsy?
We wanted to go to cwp.
Hence we waited and took bus 911.
He happily go up the bus while using phone to sms.
Then i wanted to tell him he walked slant way alr.
But i see him walk till so happy then didn't say.
He put his leg and walked up the bus stairs.
So zhun, his knee hit the pole.
He was like "ouchh"... while holding his knee.
He faster turned behind and looked at me.
Intending to act blur, but i saw everything.
Too bad ah baby.
Then hor, this baby of mine,
kept use his head banged on things.

Lastly, why cry baby?
Because i anyhow say only. :x
Saw him cry today.
Because he made me waited for so long, he felt guilty.
Waited alone and cried for 2hr.
After that jes came to find me, force me eat.
She tried to cheer me up too.
Baby woke up, then faster rushed out.
Saw me at the stairs there, we hugged.
Then his head keep putting on my shoulder.
I like push him up, he don't want.
I knew he cried, so asked him he okay or not.
Then i turn and look, saw tears coming out. :'(
See alr very heart pain leh baby.
After that still don't want admit you cry ah.
Still want pretend is eye got sweat, put eyemo. -.-

Baby, i'm missing you now! :D
I love you so much uh.
Forever ok.

Babylurbb! <3

2009-08-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

31 July
School as normal.
After school stayed in class a while.
Completed the amaths school paper.
Then went to find baby at bball court.
Go out school ulti, then went to his house.
Prepared, intended to go amk hub.
Ended up going to cwp watch the movie, Murderer.
Not bad ah the movie.
Then went to slack at 765.
Went to crescent slack too.
Then night go teeyuan's house with baby and stead.
We intended to ton and watch tv.
Ended up all sleeping one by one.
Left Jes alone watch. Haha.

1 August
Woke up by jes?
She wanted to eat breakfast.
But we slept till noon ah.
Had lunch at admiralty kfc.
Then went to baby's house.
I pulled him go do homework.
After that time went to 765 slack.
Lol, baby, super tired hor.
Went home at evening.

2 August
Wanted to go swimming with family.
But i just can't wake up.
Afternoon went to ahma's house.
Her birthday celebration.
After that went to meet jie at yishun.
Pei her home, put things.
Went to meet baby and jes.
Slacked till 12 plus?
Then all went home.

Today
Morning call from jes.
Prepare and went to baby's house.
Threw my handphone on him outside the window.
He still can't wake up eh.
Then i keep call "baby baby baby..."
His mum heard, then shout at him "shawn!"
Then he wake up.
Went into his house, he still lie on bed.
So i keep pulling him up. Haha.
Went to meet jes and shien at 768 mac.
Had our breakfast.
Then cab to school leh.
Luckily not late hor.
Almost slacking everyday eh. Lol.

Baby, luckily we didn't quarrel hor today.
Sorry ah. But you very dumb eh.
Because of what i said.
You go throw away your stud.
Anyway, baby, later at 12am then can go find the present hor.
I secretly put in your room alr. :D
Jiayou in finding! :D
Baby, i love you!

2009-07-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

Chem SPA today.
Okay lah. Just hope can pass uh. :D
Stress ah stress!
Just finish chatting with baby on phone.
He super dirty, reach home didn't go bathe first.
Baby ah, remember to drink more water horh. :D
Two month coming leh.
Looking forward! :D
We still no quarrel horh.
Because we've our TOP promise. :D

Yay, baby can online alr. :X
Bye blogger, i want to go chat alr.
:D

2009-07-28T21:36:00.002+08:00

STRESS AH! >:(

WAITING FOR BABY TO CALL ME NOW.
FASTER FASTER.

anw, had physics spa skill 3 today.
i think my physics spa is gone case alr.
that time chua said half of the class fail skill 1 & 2?
those passed also borderline passed only.
then today the last spa exam i did wrongly. :(
there write plastic tube, i thought is plastic container.
then i write to contain paper clips.
is like tube can contain meh. :(
how how how?
just wish that tmr chem i'll be more careful.
:D

baby, i love you!
faster call me. :D

2009-07-26T14:38:00.008+08:00

This is encrypted: *****

Ask me for the password. :D

2009-07-24T23:59:00.001+08:00

Shall post about today.
Morning went to meet baby.
Waited for him outside his house.
But i see 7 alr he still haven't reply my msg/call.
So i go press the doorbell and his mum ask me go in wait.
Waited for baby to go bathe and prepare.
Then his dad sent us to school.
In the end still late uh.
*skip the school part*
Physics lesson was canceled.
Actually i was very enthu to go for the lesson eh.
Never mind, tomorrow i'll go. :D
Then pei baby go home prepare.
Went to 768 and meet up with the usual clique.
Slacked at 765.
Fight with baby, very fun. :D
But my arm now a lot blueblack eh.
Gambled hair with teeyuan.
Lost a lot, but managed to pull 9 or 10 of his hair.
Many things happened today.
Anw, cheer up to those who ain't in a good mood today.

Lastly, this part is for my dearest baby.
Baby, must remember if got anything must say uh.
I got things i also got tell you eh. :D
Remember our top promise.
We alr gou gou shou and promise kiss alr. Lol.
Shall not post out what happened uh.
Someone keep finding toothpick hor. :x
LOL. Baby, i love you. :P

2009-07-22T21:46:00.002+08:00

baby baby! :D
this post is for you.
finally you stop saying sorry uh.
told you alr, is not your fault.
i'm really not angry eh!
thanks for being so good to me always.
baby, i love you very much.
give you a longer post next time!
<3

2009-07-19T21:57:00.003+08:00

" It was until you were about to let go,
then I realized how much I needed you. "

I want to thank someone.
Who is always by my side.
I knew everything has changed between us.
Attitude was the thing that brought us to quarrel.
I have to admit, I'm always at fault.
I've read the message you sent to me.
It makes me think of the past.
You were you the only one who is there for me.
And tears just came out from my eyes.
I could hardly control it.

Don't feel like continuing the post already.
Thanks for always being there for me.
Time will heal the wound, i guess?
I shall end my post here.

2009-07-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

I'm missing someone now.
His name is ShawnNiewSongPek! :D

Yesterday morning, we almost quarrel.
But everything is fine now. :D
Yay. Baby very care for me.
Yesterday night he knew something happened.
He immediately called me and asked me whether i'm alright.
Baby best lah.
I love you! ♥

2009-07-16T22:25:00.003+08:00

(Hover on the pictures)

2009-07-14T21:27:00.003+08:00

Heartbroken uh!
Yesterday in class during reading period.
My left ear suddenly very pain.
I took out ear stick, then realised got a lot of blood.
Then the blood like can't stop one.
So went to toilet clean.
Pain until very jialat.
So i decided to close that earhole.
Is the piercing i loved the most eh. :(
Going to repierce soon, after o level.
But now sleep very shuang alr. :D

Hmm. Today played with cong's psp!
I broke his record leh.
His record was 5.16 min?
Then i play first time 3.56 min.
Second time i play, 3.43 min!
All is tyco one, i anyhow play only. :x

Think nothing to update alr.
Lastly,
BABY BABY I LOVE YOU! :D
*bombbbbb*

I'll move on.

2009-07-13T22:41:00.007+08:00

First of all, I'd like to pray that baby, shien, and stead to recover soon.
Our whole clique tio fever together eh.
Shien still say, that time we anyhow crap, say if one tio, all will tio.
And it really came true, laughs.

Anyway, I went to read shien's blog not too long ago.
I saw those pictures, and I don't know how to react.
Should i feel happy, or sad?
I shall upload some pictures uh.
It's according to the age.

Sorry ah, cannot find lucas' photo. :x
And also can't find the picture we took in cwp.
I've never regret knowing them.
They once gave me the best feelings in my whole life.
It was beyond what my family can give.
Good-bye, Ah-family.
Still, they'll always be in my heart.

Happened to find this picture too.
It's Jonathan Yong.
Someone who have drifted away from me.
He was once the one who always made me laugh.
Seeing his face, confirm will laugh one.

Sick.

2009-07-12T14:11:00.003+08:00

Recently, there are many people falling sick.
I've sore throat, cough, body ache, sometimes headache.
Ate medicine for 2 days alr, but my sore throat ain't getting better.
I supposed i've spread my virus to baby eh.
He said he've sore throat too, and a bit fever?
Now he's resting.
Hope he'll be alright by tonight.
He's having n level tomorrow!
All the best uh.

Loves.

2009-07-11T22:50:00.004+08:00

2009-07-11T09:55:00.005+08:00

Webcam with baby.
Took this picture without him knowing. :D
Cool hor, he still got pose leh. :x

2009-07-06T19:54:00.002+08:00

Saturday
Happy one month baby!
Woke up, prepared, then went to meet baby.
Went to cwp and watched the movie, Obesessed.
Overall the movie was nice.
After movie, ate kfc with baby!
Then met lewis at cwp.
Took bus to yishun and met sweeleong.
And we went to Kailin's (shawn's jie) bbq.
Enjoyed, went back at around 12 midnight.

Sunday
Morning went to meet jeslyn stead.
Had breakfast, then slacked at 765.
Sam came to joined us a while.
Then they went to 768 i think?
Jes and i went to cwp.
She pei me buy tys, then we went to meet shien.
Slacked at shien's house there.
Went to airport with stead, sent my sis off.
She went to australia alr, will miss her very much!
Took bus back to yishun, met baby and his friends.
Slacked a while then went home.

Today
Something really bad happened in the morning.
But everything is fine now.
Sorry for showing you attitude.
Won't send short msg to you again.
& Lastly, baby, I ♥ U.

2009-07-01T00:48:00.004+08:00

love rabbit! :D
okay luh, nothing much to update.
going to sleep alr.
anw, everything is fine now.
i used so much time to think and worried.
haha, then in the end is nothing.
but still i'm very happy now.
i love my dearest baby! ♥

Worried; Terrified

2009-06-29T20:53:00.005+08:00

Let's practice Social Studies SBQ skills.
What can you infer from the picture above?

2009-06-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

meet baby in the morning.
he pei me go eat first.
then he went to cut his bangs.
hope his hair won't get caught on monday uh.
then he went home bathe.
his mom keep say his hair ugly. LOL!
then say she also know how to cut it.
went to meet up with the rest.
as usual, slack together.
we played murderer game!
after that shien and shawn have to go alr.
we went to a fitness corner there slacked.
then jes and i went to buy burger.
bus with peilin, accompany her to wait for bus.
then jes and i went back to the fitness corner there.
we played blackjack.
then i suggested to have punishment, which is to pull hair.
i keep losing eh.
then total i kena 12 hair being pulled out.
tinkiat was worse than me? :x
the lesson learnt was not to anyhow suggest stupid punishment.
after that, tk and teeyuan went off.
only left me, jes, cong, cheeguan, laoshu.
we continue to play murderer.
cheeguan and laoshu went 768, left we 3 there rot.
then we talk talk uh.
after that they two come back, baby also come luh.
slacked till 11 like that, went to jes house.
used computer, intended to watch show.
but too tired alr, all ended up sleeping.

2009-06-24T21:36:00.002+08:00

Baby, i love you. ♥
Don't think so much okay?
Don't ever let those small things to hurt our relationship.
Must remember our promises arh. :D

2009-06-19T22:49:00.002+08:00

Meet up with baby at around 11.
Super lucky eh, first call he woke up.
Then waited for him at his block there.
Bus to 768, i studied, he ate his mac.
Very paiseh uh, shien and peilin study finish.
Then didn't tell me.
I continue study, they looked at me.
I'll shy one okay. :x
Then went to 765 slack slack.
Nothing much uh.
Shall end my post here.

Jeslyn sttead, happy 5 month! <3

2009-06-18T12:45:00.006+08:00

Tuesday
Morning meet Jeslyn stead, went to shien's house with her.
Then peilin also came.
We tried to take photos.
But all the pictures doesn't seem to be nice?
Then went to admiralty place meet up with the rest.
Set off to Jurong Point.
To hunt for birthday cake and present.
Evening like that went back to woodlands slack.
Home at around 8 plus.

Wednesday (Happy birthday, tinkiat!)
Meet Jeslyn stead for breakfast.
Then she sent me to school.
After school, went to 765 meet Jes.
Then went her house, bathe, borrowed polo from her.
Went back to 765 to slack.
Around 5, the girls went to Jes' house bathe.
Cab to Vista with shien, jes, peilin.
Helped tinkiat celebrate for his birthday.
We tried to light up the candle.
But still failed, so shien just took out the cake.
Shawn threw a ball at tk, then we all sang birthday song.
After celebration, some went home, the rest went to the carpark there.
Slacked at there, drank a bit.
Then around 12, many went home.
Only left me, jes, shawn, teeyuan, and another guy.
We were there slack till hao hao one.
Then that guy, shawn and teeyuan's friend.
He suggested to go catch crab.
No one disagree, as he said is very exciting?
Cab down to sembawang to catch crab.
Reach there, only that guy was entertained.
He was super enthu in catching crab eh.
We sit there rot, played truth or dare (but only played truth).
Ton at that place siol. O:

Thursday (Happy birthday, sien!)
Morning, when going back.
We've to walk around 1.500km, to main road.
Super shagged arh.
Waited for cab for super long, but ended up taking bus.
Their friend seemed very happy with the crabs.
While the rest of us were dying.
I swear, this was the first time we ton till like that. Lol.
Reached back 768, had breakfast with jeslyn stead.
Went to 765 slacked, i fell asleep.
Left jes alone looking at me sleep, sorry ar stead.
Went back home at 9 plus.
Now is 1 plus alr.
And i'm still not sleeping eh.
Can't seem to fall asleep.
Okay, shall end my post here. :D

2009-06-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hello! :D
Shall try to make a longer post today.
Woke up at around 8 today?
Then prepared, waited for my dajie.
Spam call baby, he don't want wake up. ):
So i went to meet Jes they all at 768.
Reach there, eat breakfast.
Then baby finally wake up luh.
He came to meet us.
Study, but like didn't study much eh.
Slacked at 765.
Then some had their dinner at mac.
Went back to slack again, till 8 plus.
Thanks Jes stead for comforting me!
It's the first time she really comfort someone sial.
She also told me a lot da dao li eh. O:
Okay lah, stead ar, i grow up alr.
Will think more mature de okay.

Baby ar, this is for you.
I really enjoyed the times we have.
You're the sweetest boy ever eh.
Thanks for helping me to dabao kfc! Lol!
Must eat more okay. :D
Take good care of yourself!
If want to renew, just tell me k. :x
I love you! ♥

2009-06-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

Today is our 11th day together! :D
Feeling down, slept for the whole afternoon.
Thanks baby for cheering and trying to make me smile.
Currently chatting with him on msn.
That's all for today.

I miss baby ):

2009-06-13T11:32:00.001+08:00

Hellooooo! :D
Just finish helping mushroom to update his blog.
Don't know what to do now.
Maybe afternoon or night going out shopping with parents.
Boring luh, i'm rotting at home.
Can't go out ehh. ):

Okay luh, nothing to post.
My post is getting shorter eh.
I used to make very long post one.
Lol, shall post longer next time ar!
Bye!

2009-06-11T22:40:00.002+08:00

Today, reach school at 9?
Then at class wait for teacher come.
Did the planning, i totally have no idea how to do.
Dismiss alr went to mac wait for shien and peilin.
They reached alr, then we study at mac.
After studying, slack slack.
Shawn reach 768 alr then go back adp help me buy kfc.
So good uh, thanks ar! :D
Nothing much about today.
Shall end here.
Bye! :D

2009-06-10T20:29:00.007+08:00

Tuesday
Meet shawn in the morning. :D
He sent me to school.
Only did filing, and it took 2 hrs.
Wth right. -.-
After that went to 768 eat lunch.
Then slacked at 756 again.
Went off at evening.

Wednesday
Meet jeslyn stead in the morning.
Went to study with her.
I think i took 1 hr to pack my things.
Then almost slacking all the way.
Didn't study much.
Neither does she. :D
We went to 765, as the mac is super noisy.
After that the rest came.
Slack slack.
Went home very early today. :D

My post seems to be getting shorted and shorter.
Will make a long long post sooon uh. :D

2009-06-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

Morning send my didi go school.
Walked to stead house waited for her.
Went to 768 study.
Shien came, followed by tk, shawn and peilin.
Studied at there for very long.
After that went to 756 slack. :D
Nothing much about today uh.
Shawn copy me again eh.
We wore black shirt and the pants almost same colour too.
That time we wore pink and pants also almost same colour.
I swear we didn't plan at all eh.
He copy me! :DDD

I love him. :D

2009-06-07T10:43:00.005+08:00

I really hoped that nothing will happen.
But if you really go in, i'll wait.
Must remember this in your heart okay.
I really will wait for you.
No matter how long i also will wait.
If really go in.
You must take care of yourself okay.
Try not to fight okay.
Must protect yourself.
Eat more, drink more water.
I'll take care of myself also.
Will not let other people bully me.
Really wished that you won't go in. ):
Haish, no mood to blog alr.
Shall end here. Bye.

2009-06-04T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'm super active in blogger. :D
Today late for school.
Went to meet jes for breakfast.
Then she sent me to school.
Reach school just nice first lesson gone.
Walked in, the sercurity like sleeping sial.
Went to class, free period all the way.
Today in school is like a slacking day.
After school got chem spa.
I pro ar, make till my uniform got many colours.
Waited for shien to release.
Then we went to admiralty meet valerie.
Took consent form and went to 768.
At admiralty waiting for bus.
Got one bus come, i anyhow again.
I said bus come alr, shien happy happy want board the bus.
Then we realise is 969. :x
Met jes and peilin at 768.
Walked to 756 meet up with others.
I ate potato chips again. Lol.
Slack a while, and i became very sleepy.
I think i fell asleep on baby's leg eh.
Too tired alr. Slacked till evening.
Took bus, jes stead sent me to checkpoint again. :D
That's all for today.

2009-06-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

Woke up late this morning! :x
Just too tired, can't get up from my bed eh.
Then prepared, went out.
Heng ar, not late for school.
Yeeshien and Peilin waited for me at bus stop. :D
Luckily didn't cause them to be late.
School is boring lah okay!
SkipSkipSkip!
And yah, luckily i went to SPA ar.
4E1 full attendance leh. :D
Then after that went to slackslack.
Jes, Shien, Peilin come fetch me at 768.
Walked to 756 there.
Went off at around 6 plus.
Reached home, bathe, sleep, eat.
Now using comp and smsing with him. :D

Sorry boy.
Today like a bit cold cold to you eh.
Maybe no mood uh.
Whole day like that sial.
I'm so sorry okay.
Really thought a lot of things today.
Don't worry ar boy.
If go in, i will really wait!
Remember all our promises okay.
Don't think too much.
I will never leave you. x3

2009-06-01T23:55:00.002+08:00

Morning wake up.
Bathe and prepare.
Went to meet shawn at his block there.
I go the void deck wait.
Then he go the bus stop wait!
Lol. Funny eh him.
Then we wait for bus go 768.
Starting i see like 913.
I say come alr, then suddenly the bus turn in.
Is actually 911! Lol.
Then i saw another bus, i say is 913 again.
He happily stand up want to board the bus.
Then we realise is 900! Lol!
Third time he see the bus, don't want let me see luh.
Board 913 to 768, buy things.
Went to 756 meet them.
Slacked all the way till night.
Took many photos! :D
Shall post one only, as i'm too lazy.

2009-05-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

Haha, i'm so active in blogger eh!
Erm tomorrow 4E/5N got Mother Tongue O level.
Wish all of them good luck uh. :D

Stay at home the whole day.
So called "pei parents".
Actually they just don't want me go out.
Tomorrow actually mum don't let me go out one.
But i insist want to go out.
So okay, she let me out. Yay.

Hmm, just now chatted with Syima.
She clumsy elephant lah. Haha.
Say me bully her.
Where got sial.
And and, she very kpo! Lol.
Long time didn't chat with this elephant alr.
Now chatting with ZhengFu.
My paikia di. O:
He super paikia eh! Haha.
Didi ar, must take care of yourself uh.
Don't fight alr okay.
Anything just tell jiejie. :D
When i top up my phone then i msg you k.

Nothing to blog luh.
Bye!

Take care boy, get well soon! x3

LoveLoveLove!

2009-05-30T16:03:00.005+08:00

Hello! :D
Shall post about shawn the mushroom, and me.
The day we know each other was on 19th May.
The first word he told me was "sorry".
Lol, because that time he want chiong to washroom.
Then don't know why stepped on my hand! ):
So my first word to him was "never mind".
Then the next day, we slacked together at crescent.
He told me sorry again.
Then we started to talk, but didn't talk much.
He keep want to eat mentos.
So cute uh him. :x
Then we like everyday slacked together.
Soon, he've got my number.
We started to msg each other.
I always do stupid things in front of him eh. ):
That time we msg, he say he reaching home.
And i replied him "okay, then you bathe alr?"
Lol, i also don't know what i was saying.
Still got one time we want go buy cig box.
I heard wrongly, and i said "okay, go buy cold one ar".
Then i think he asked "cig box got hot de meh?"
Lol. Super paiseh lah. ):
Haha, but i just feel so happy when together with him.

Shawn,
don't think too much uh.
nothing will happened to you all de.
won't go in one.
if really go in (hope not), i will wait for you.
i really will wait, must trust me.
remember all the msg we sent.
i meant it from my heart.
i love you. ♥

2009-05-29T09:33:00.003+08:00

Whooooo.
The rest of the 4E must go back school.
I'm at home relaxing now. :D
Just woke up not too long ago.
Supposed to do LMS because i don't have mt O level.
Then need wake up at 8?
I now then wake up, around 9 plus.
And is i zi dong wake up.
Mummy forget to wake me eh.
I'm still very sleepy now. ):

Yesterday night msg with him half way then i fall asleep again.
Lol. Second time alr eh.
Now he's still sleeping uh!
Still don't want wake up pei me msg. ):
And that paikia di.
Say online pei wo chat.
Now he's away eh?
Don't know where he go alr.
Rah, pangseh jiejie. ):
Think i use comp a while more.
Then i go prepare and go out meet jes they all.
Maybe evening, with shien and peilin.
We go watch night at the museum 2? :D

2009-05-29T01:57:00.003+08:00

Blog is open again! :D
Nothing much to post about.
Gotten back mid year result.
Didn't really do well.
Think my result have been dropping eh.
Nowdays keep slacking.
Hmm. Don't know what else to post alr.
:D

Adapted.

2009-05-21T12:55:00.005+08:00

I don't know if i were the one.
But i won't go and care about it anymore.
Since the words i heard weren't nice at all.
What's the point of caring, right?
I won't go and ask about it anymore.
I don't want to fall down to that point again.
I can easily fall for someone.
But, i can also easily forget someone.
It's just the choice of whether i want or not.
Now, i've decided to forget.
Very fast one, i will prove it.
Just within that hour, that feelings faded so much.
Yes, i believe i can forget and get over it soon.

From now on, i'll have no life alr.
Must study hard alr.
I don't want to let that teacher to be disappointed.
I know he believes and have high expectation on me.
So i shall buck up and do well for my GCE 'O' level.
Shall not let him down.
Thanks teacher, you're the only teacher that kept me motivated.
:D

I love you, Stead! ♥

2009-05-19T00:00:00.001+08:00

Dearest Jeslyn,

This post is specially dedicated to you.
Happy four months!
It's the beginning of our fifth month alr.
Time flies passed so fast uh.
Since the day i know you, which is 2007.
We have nothing much to talk about.
Until last year, we sat beside each other during morning assembly.
You kept deesiao me, "same book, same page again ar?"
That's when we became a little bit closer.
Then until the time we slacked together.
I was doing all the dumb stuffs.
While you were the only one who didn't ignore me.
The one i remember vividly was the books part.
Next, we started to "shoot" each other.
You never fails to shoot me whenever i meet you.
Maybe that's how we communicate.
Until starting of this year, we become stead.
And we've became so close.
It's almost unbelievable, right?
I really enjoyed talking to you.
I enjoyed spending my time with you.
I've didn't regret knowing you in my life.
You're the best person alr.
I can't find anyone who treats me better than you.
Sorry for being so childish.
Remembering that time we because of small things.
Then kept quarreling. (last month?)
But after that time that BIG quarrel then no more luh.
I believe we will treasure each other more.
Yes, i will treasure you.
Won't make you sad or worry for me alr.
Really sorry can't celebrate our four months together.
We shall celebrate on wednesday okay?
And, i won't leave you one.
Really sorry that i made the decision to leave soon.
Because i don't want to stay in this place.
You said, "what's the point of staying if you will be sad?"
I knew although you didn't want me to leave right.
I promised i will come and look for you soon.
You'll be the first one that i looked for when i come back.
Must remember me okay, and miss me.
I love you. ♥

Yours truly,
Jialin

2009-05-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

Morning meet up with a pig.
Then went to school with the pig.
Thanks uh, without him i would be drenched when i reached school.
And pig so good uh.
Yesterday i keep complaining weather very hot.
So he bought for me peach tea.
But ended up, this morning very cold, grrr.
And he bought for me chocolate again. tyvm hor!
Reached school, studied for physics.
Physics paper was a disater okay.
A.maths paper was fine.
Just that need to sit there for 2h 30mins.
Sit until my butt pain lah. :x
After school, syafiq and syazwan accompany me walk walk.
Then they went to play soccer.
While i took 969 to tamp. int.
Went to wait for my stead.
Wait until i want to peeeee.
But don't know why just want to wait till she come then i go toilet.
After that we took 969 back to adp.
Had dinner with her.
My first meal of the day.
Just don't have the appetite to eat eh.
Vivian and Sam came later on.
Took 912 home, stead sent me again.
I love her many!

Chatted with zhuren.
He tried to cheer me up.
Hmm, after chatting with him i feels better bah.

Lol, nothing to blog luh.
Bye~

2009-05-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

Because i love you.
That's why i didn't blame you for what you had done.
I knew everything from the start.
It's just that i'm lying to myself.
I choose to trust you.
Seriously, i don't mind about it.
Stop blaming yourself okay.
I don't know, but i will still treat you good.
How you want me to stop treating you good?
I really can't do it.
Anyway, cheer up please.

Friend, ily.

2009-05-12T22:01:00.004+08:00

Boy,
Please don't blame yourself alright.
I really don't know what to say.
Please stop blaming yourself.
It's not your fault at all.
It's my fault too.
Please i beg you, don't like that.
Let's forget everything okay.
Don't go think about it luh.
I will treat you good no matter what.
This is because i love you too much alr.
I can't stop it, i really can't.
After so long, my heart only have you inside.
None can't ever replace the feelings i have for you.
I seriously have no idea what happened to you.
If you want to tell me, then tell bah.
Maybe i'm not good enough for you only.
Yes, perharps you deserve a better one.
But still, my heart belongs to you.
Don't blame yourself anymore okay.
Don't think too much.
Take good care of yourself.
Must eat more and sleep early.
Don't keep playing dota.
Smoke less okay, and rest more!
I love you. ♥

2009-05-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

From the day i met you.
From the day we became close.
From the day i told you i love you.
From the day we ton together.
From the day you told me everything.
From the day we drank together.
From the day we stop talking.
From the day i saw you again.
I know i can't stop lying to myself.
The feelings i have for you, have never fade before.
I don't expect anything from you.
Neither do i know what to do.
Seeing you happy is just what i wished for.
Take good care of yourself.
Don't always play dota too long and sleep in the morning.
I just hope we can be close back again.
Boy, i love you.

Jeslyn Stead!
What if one day, you're tired of me?
I really don't wish that day to come.
Again, i want to tell you sorry.
Sorry for giving you attitude today.
I'm just jealous and i don't know why.
Must remember what we promised in the bus uh.
Photocopy alr, cannot take back your words.
I'm yours, everyday and every moment.
Even if really cannot meet, Friday, is OUR day okay.
Looking forward to this coming friday!
Stead, you really meant a lot to me.
I don't want you to leave me alone.
I won't leave you too de.
You must always remember me okay.
Cannot when i come back, you totally forget my existence luh.
Let's treasure the time we have now!
I love you!! ♥

Broken down.

2009-05-09T00:42:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously very tired.
But just can't seem to fall asleep.
Alright, shall blog about yesterday.
Morning meet stead at her house there.
Accompany her go take bus.
Then i went to school alone.
Jordon was sick, take care uh.
Chemistry paper, i did the wrong question.
Amaths paper, i no time for graph.
Which means 9 marks gone.
After amaths paper, i came out from hall and i broke down.
After school accompanied vivan to go home.
Stead reached home, bathe and meet me.
Went to had our lunch.
Which is my first meal of the day.
My first time so late then eat ehs.
Because don't really have the mood.
After eating, went to slack with stead.
We took bus go one round then to Causeway Point.
Outside the action city, we saw the carebear.
Then stead said "eh, sam like the carebear..."
Within one second, sam was just behind us then she tap stead's shoulder.
I swear we didn't know she was behind us, neither do we know she was at cwp.
Then we three plus sam's friend went to cinema decide to watch which movie.
Watched "Horseman".
Hmm, i don't really enjoy watching the show.
Is super disgusting okay.

Jeslyn dear,
it really hurts me so much when i see you cry.
no point crying alr, alright.
don't cry for those worthless things.
what's the point of crying and making you more sad.
while other people don't even know.
i will treasure you more than anyone does.
don't sad alr okayyy.
anything must tell me!
don't everytime keep to yourself or let me guess.
we must say out everything uh.
what's gone is alr gone.
don't think about it alr.
i also given up luh.
you can do it too!
anyway, what you guess was right.
you're pro ehhhs.
but i don't care about that luh.

p/s: don't take picture again hor!

one day, i will leave this sinful place and find my own freedom.

2009-05-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

This morning rain heavily hor.
I know stead's mood will be bad. ):
So sad i'm wasn't there for her.
Morning called her a while and chat.
Sorry dear, yesterday talked on phone then i fall asleep.
Chat chat, then went to meet jordon.
I seriously think that my eyes got problem.
He was just right in front of me and i cannot see sial.
Then walked to school, raining.
He took umbrella then i insist that i don't want to use.
So he bobian also didn't use.
Ended up our clothes were wet. Haha.
Mye. If i can pass, must really thank God man.
After school went to 768 mac.
Taught viv a bit of maths.
Then we had our lunch.
And i went off for higher chinese exam.
Took bus to admiralty.
Wanted to top up my card.
Realised i left my card in the bus. O:
Keep searching my card but couldn't find it.
Syafiq walked past and i told him i lost my card.
He liked didn't believe my words.
Then he lent me $1? Lol.
Higher chinese exam, question was okay.
But i not enough time to complete it.
Came back to admiralty to meet dear.
She accompanied me to go search for my card.
I was so lucky man, i found it! :D
*Yayness*
Going back, took the wrong bus.
Almost go to Boonlay eh. O:
Was very scary.
Luckily got stead accompanied me.
As the place was very eerie, then i kept crying.
Heng, stead comfort me.
Somehow, i think i can sense something. Idk?

Anyway,
my new name is JiaNing; aka Lamp.
Jeslyn; aka Jam.
Vivian; aka Vamp.
Samatha; aka Sham.
Weihao; aka Ham.
Me the most speacial hor.
I changed my name, not Jialin luh.
And i can shine okay!
Don't try me.
I can shine till you die hor :D

To Jeslyn Stead:
today is our 108th day!
i'm really glad to know you.
you're the best gift i ever have.
i'm really sorry for all the things i did to you.
now days i kept giving you attitude.
my mood swing sucks, i know.
i will change because of you(:
i don't want us to keep quarrel okay.
each time we quarrel, my heart really hurts eh.
everytime when i saw you cry because of me.
i really don't know what to do.
i'm not a caring stead.
i'm not good at all.
but thanks for treating me so good.
i promised i won't leave you okay.
neither can you leave me hor.
we must be together no matter what.
let today be the last time we quarrel.
i don't wish to talk about future.
i don't want to think about my future for the time being.
i just want to be with you now and stay happy with you.
promise me, you won't leave me without letting me know.
if one day, you cannot take me anymore.
just tell me goodbye.
don't let me waiting.
*but i still wish we won't be apart* (:
and stead, i know i'm very selfish.
hope you will wait for me okay.
i promised, i will be back to see you.
i will remember you de.
don't forget me uh. ):
ily! ♥

2009-05-03T23:46:00.005+08:00

Hello, i'm back!
About 2 days didn't use computer alr.
Shall update about recent days.

Friday
Chalet.
Was a tiring day.
Stead wanted to see sunrise with me.
But we were not able to see it.
Due to the dark clouds that blocked the sun.
Ate a lot during the chalet.

Saturday
Pack up and went off.
Stayed at Jes' house.
A suckish day.
My eyes were very dry at night.

Sunday
Wake up at 9 plus.
Went to library and study with sam and wenjie first.
Stead and Twin then come find us.
Weihao joined us later.
Like didn't study much.
A few more days to go to MYE.
So many subjects, so many topics.
So little time left.
Just hope that time could go slower.
Or my brain memory can grow bigger.

Fade into Memory

2009-04-27T21:42:00.003+08:00

The memories are no longer important to me anymore.
I won't go and look back into the past.
You guys taught me something, thanks.
You guys taught me that the world is REALISTIC.
Everything are so realistic, money, etc.
Please do some reflection(s) before saying others.
I wondered why i was still sitting down here.
Thinking how to get back.
While you guys were there, doing other things.
Definitely mind was w/o me.
What's the point of being sad?
While you guys were there, seems to be happier than before.
Shall stop my post here.

Byebye, the past.

2009-04-25T21:22:00.003+08:00

Rating: NC16
Consumer advice: Disturbing content
Genre: Action, Thriller
Language: English, French Albanian and Arabic with Chinese and English subtitles
Director: Pierre Morel
Cast: Liam Neeson, Maggie Grace, Famke Janssen, Xander Berkeley
Runtime: 94mins

Liam Neeson stars in this action-packed international thriller that will have you on the edge of your seat from start to finish. When his estranged daughter is kidnapped in Paris, a former spy (Neeson) sets out to find her at any cost. Relying on his special skills, he tracks down the ruthless gang that abducted her and launches a one-man war to bring them to justice and rescue his daughter.

watched this show with jeslyn steadd yesterday.
our first movie we watched, only two of us.
the movie was awesome eh.
something funny during buying of ticket.
lol. they checked our ic before buying.
then they see mine, okay.
they see jeslyn de, the person asked.
"you august then 16 right?"
then jes said "is 18 -.-"
lol. funny sial.
okay, i'm lazy to blog alr.
bye~
:D

Izzuan, the birthday boy!

2009-04-21T21:39:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday, Izzuan Boyfriend! ♥

i don't mean the monkey is you okay. lol.
argh, really sorry that i didn't give you anything.
but at least i still remember your birthday, right?
izzuan ar, 16 years old alr!
finally right? can watch NC 16.
but too bad recently there's no nc 16 movie for you.
awww, so sad right. haha.
anyway, good luck for your O level uh.
jiayou, i know you can do it one. :D
i'm such a good girlfriend hor.
specially made a post for you eh. lols.
all the best in whatever you do bah.
take care, boyfriend. :x
happy birthday once again!

Immature

2009-04-20T21:18:00.007+08:00

Till today, i realised how immature i am.

I'm just like a dumbass.

I was always joking around, laughing all this while.

I didn't realise what's happening around me.

People are leaving me one by one.

There's a reason behind it.

Yes, i am totally imperfect.

Sooner or later, you will leave me too.

I knew, i really do.

People, i mean, friends, passed by me and went off.

This include the good and the understanding ones.

I don't know, i really don't know what to do.

What else more can i do, but to continue smiling.

I just don't know how to react.

Yes, i'm slow.

I'm slow, till today then i knew what happened.

I was always there, laughing and smiling at the wrong time.

Things are about to go, and i was still smiling.

Without realising what's happening.

And i don't know what's the reason of yours.

I don't know what had happened.

Changes happened so fast.

The changes you made me to adapt.

It was beyond what i can handle.

I knew i still can't forget you.

I knew things won't be back.

But what else more can i do?

Maybe i just need more time.

The feelings i have for you.

Was so strong, so deep.

And this is to the one who treats me the best in this world.

I'm really sorry.

Sorry is the word i only want to say.

I don't know what i want.

Everytime, i see you sad, my heart hurts too.

The reason you're sad is because of me.

I know i've hurt you.

I'm not a good girl.

I'm so imperfect, totally.

I'm not good enough for you.

I wished you'll open your heart, and let someone else to touch your heart.

I'm just not good, i'll never be the one.

I'm not faithful, i'm immature.

I'm childish, i'm sensitive.

Alright, no mood to blog alr.

Bye for now.

*Gone*

2009-04-19T17:24:00.004+08:00

Mid-year exam is coming soon!
Feeling stress anyone?
Picture above may help to relieve stress.
Hahaha. I'm lame.
Two more weeks to go.
Must use this two week to study for Sec3 and Sec4 work luh.
& I've not start studying.
Wish me good luck then.
Really hope to turn on my studying-mode soon.
Someone, help me turn on please? :D

A long way to go.

2009-04-16T22:13:00.004+08:00

life isn't as easy as how we thought.

and i want to admit, i'm a dumbo in sensing.

i have no sense of what's going on around me.

i don't obverse what's happening.

yes, you can call me an idiot.

i know i have alr done my best.

the future doesn't lie on my hand.

it takes two hands to clap.

no point moving one hand, while the other hand in not even moving.

till today, i don't know what have i done wrongly.

what was the reason of the words you said to her.

does those memories we had, really meant nothing?

you pass by my sight.

slowly, you came into my heart.

now that you're leaving.

without telling me anything, without any reason.

i'm seriously not good in guessing.

i can't sense, i can't guess.

just how useless can i be.

and this is what we called friends.

who leave each other behind.

if i was given a choice again,

i rather choose that you've never enter my life before.

see how deeply you've hurt me.

from the inside out.

you will never understand.

2009-04-15T21:48:00.002+08:00

YAY!
jialin's back in blogger!
okay, i'm lameee.
wooo, plurk is fun.
karma keep increasing.
fast reach 50 please.
then can have more emoticons!

nowdays nth much happened.
only got one bastard keep kp me.
damn gl, what can i do?
rah. i did nothing wrong eh.
keep come guailan wo.
isn't it obvious that he's purposely picking on me.
rah, whatever lah.
i don't give a damn man.
guailan somemore, try lor.
:D

won't be angry over this thing. x)
hmm. today morning meet viv and wh.
then blahblahblah, lessons.
then lunch break.
whooo, the black pepper chicken very nice eh. ;x
thn when going back class got shocked by the sec5s at corner there. O:
after school went for last cg.
i lead games again! ;D
don't think my games are interesting though. ;x
thanks chanel for helping me in the forfeit.
next week hope i can plan nice nice de icebreaking games!
really looking forward for the new cg.
and same group with meow wei again. x)
i confirm will go keesiao mannnnnn.
looking forward to saturday service toooo!
okay lah, blog till here.
byebye! :D:D:D

2009-04-13T21:37:00.002+08:00

breakfast with qutub.
as usual, i'm still earlier than him.
waited for him a while only.
on the way to school saw faiz laogong.
i asked qutub helped me take bag to class.
then i pei laogong go his seat there.
wheeee, qutub saved me man!
he knew i didn't take my tie.
then he helped me take.
arbo i must go back class take.
amaths test, emaths test.
emaths was harder.
cheer up, syafiq daughter!
vivian didn't come to school.
then ivy stelle pei me during recess.
thanks so much uhs.
then chem practical, do titration.
everything went smoothly for me.
until wash up, i wet my uniform.
i know i'm dumb, i don't know how to use the tap properly.
assembly play soduku and eat potato chip.
with veron and siling.
thanks them for treating me ehs.
after school ivy stella pei wo wait for bus.
i bused to admiralty meet jes, viv, wh.
slacked around, super hungry eh.
i'm officially bankrupt.
must start saving money luh.
then jes sent me to checkpoint.
and i went home.
jes and i agreed that today's time is super fast. lol.

i'm very proud to say that i'm not observant.
khairul said yesterday he was just in front of me in bus.
he smiled to me, waiting for me to smile back.
but i totally nvr see him eh.
i didn't realise got ppl in front of me.
also, yesterday saw him.
jes said she saw him long ago.
until he coming near us, someone shouted his name.
then i realised he was there.
arbo i won't know he was there eh.
this showed how not observant i am.
i don't observe those who were just around me.

*yay, tmr morning meeting laogong to school*

2009-04-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday was sports carnival.
breakfast with qutub, hotcakes with sausage!
then went to schoool.
only have one word to describe it.
BORING!
went around watching people play games.
then me, loojing and jasmine slept at the table in front of mt room there.
anw, i'm so proud to say that izzuan's team won champion for soccer.
cos got my boyfriend inside eh, mai siao siao. :x
expected, because i wished him good luck. :D
after school meet qutub at the bus stop there.
then went to 768, vivian came.
ate mac lunch.
then went to slack around with viv.
after my hmt, went to town meet my jie. O:
because i didn't bring keys, so i go take from her.
went to jie's house bathe, then bus to admiralty with jes.
meet viv and her friend.
slack around, then he went off.
hxd, samatha, weihao then joined.
slacked, then samantha went home.
followed by jes and viv.
left hxd and me ton. :D
like all the thing he treat me eh.
i so bu hao yi si. :x
he treated me volka green apple and im.
was a bit dizzy after the drink, but i'm not drunk eh.
then we slacked, and had our big breakfast at mac.
notice something, i like kept eating mac.
until 5 plus, i can't tahan alr, so i slept.
7 wake up, slacked.
really enjoyed the time with hxd.
it seems like i got so many things to talk to him.
and he will know how i feeel.
without me telling.
sometimes, he know how i feel when myself don't know how i feel.
i keep telling him last 2 years was fake, this year then real. LOL.

went to meet wan ting at amd at 9am.
ate cup noodle with her.
shepherd so good luh.
because i bought the abalone chicken not nice.
then she gave me her curry chicken, which is nicer than mine.
then after eating we went buy bubble tea.
it was like i ordered honeydew milk tea,
but turns out to only have milk tea taste.
shepherd ordered passionfruit greentea,
but turns out to only have weird greentea taste.
somemore the green tea have bitter plus sour taste.
went to cwp walk walk.
went back to 768, then go meowwei's house.
had so much fun with the girls.
chat, affirm wan ting, photos, eat.
after that went to ssc with shuping and rebecca.
then rebecca send me home eh. O:
prepared, then sis and me pei reb till her block.
we went home. :D

*will upload photos soon*

2009-04-08T19:57:00.002+08:00

taoyan.
sheena keep tag me and force me reply her tag.
lol, anyway i don't reply tag.
i don't know why? haha.
anyway, i love sheena to the max!
she is a very important person in my life man!
always felt very comfortable chatting with her. ♥

okay. updates.
- yesterday geog test is equal to gonecase
- today breakfast with jes, viv, wh.
- chem test was okay for me
- full marks for spelling test :D
- hope can pass english compo
- went to cg and lead games
- bus home with shepherd-to-be
- stead went to chalet alr
- i really miss my stead so much
- tomorrow is sports day!
- will meet vivian after that
- i don't know what else to post alr
- the end.

byebye!

No neutrality

2009-04-04T22:52:00.005+08:00

went back to church today.

priase, worship, teaching.

learnt that seeing the cross, we should feel love.

we should not feel guilt.
Chapter Neutral after service.

learnt that we cannot be neutral.

we have to choose, decide and be commited.

and there will always be changes in our life.

changes can be very fast.

yes, totally agreeeee.
i will choose to follow Jesus. :D

2009-04-02T23:24:00.003+08:00

this post is speacially for my haoxiongdi :D
omgosh, i miss hxd so much can.
next monday hxd coming back school for a talk.
seh, must jiayou uh hxd.
i will be there to support you one.
don't need to be nervous k.
and 3 more days to 25 months of hxd day.
we've been hxd for so long alr sial.
but until this year, then we really become close.
especially that night we ton together. :D
always feels so good after chatting with you.
i'm looking forward to next thursday. :D
can ton again with youu. hahaha.
take care of yourself ar, hxd!

2009-04-01T21:26:00.003+08:00

shall start my post by confessing :D
firstly, i love SILING! :D
not april fool okay siling.
i really love you girl. haha.
saw your blog alr.
very touched ehh.

secondly, this is for my jeslyn stead.
my one and only.
stead, i've got so much things want to confess to you.
i just don't know how to say out.
19.01.2009 was the day we started.
we promised each other cannot break.
i won't break with you de.
even if you want to break i will still hold on to you tightly.
i will not let you go okay.
really thanks for being there for me when i need you.
i'm sorry for giving you all my fking attitude.
then you everytime say i fierce, say i got mood swing.
haha. fierce? no lah. is you think too much.
mood swing? yah. sometimes i know.
i will change for you de okay. :D
you're the best lah.
everytime send me till checkpoint there.
then you will have to go home so late. ):
i promise next time when i stay in singapore.
is my turn to send you home okay.
stead ar, if got anything must tell me okay.
i want to understand you more.
really glad you told the person alr.
can see that person don't love you.
but everytime you two together, i will jealous eh.
i will love you more than that person de.
stead, you want to know how much i love you?
use your heart to feel okay.
you really meant a lot to me.
i don't bear to lose you.
i want to hold your hands tight, ily. ♥

"Friends are like balloons.
Once you let them go, you cant get them back."
saw this phrase in siling's blog.
i agree with this phrase.
and love is also like that.
once you decided to let go, no matter how hard you try also can't get back.
if very lucky heng heng get back also won't be like last time luh.
everything changes, very fast.

2009-03-31T20:14:00.002+08:00

morning meet qutub for breakfast.
i treat him this time, because i owe him.
talk to him about my things.
don't know why nowdays keep telling him my things.
he taught me how to resolve my problems.
then we walked to school, saw faiz laogong.
he everytime morning very shy and quiet sial.
i'm a good laopo, i pei him walk to his place.
then morning assembly.
lessons, reccess, lessons, lunch break, sst.
after sst went crescent meet jes and her friend, mingsheng.
actually want go find jon laogong de, but don't feel like going luh.
sorry laogong i ps you. ;x
then we three slack, went 768 mac eat.
i did a very paiseh thing in mac sial, rah.
slack a while, then homed.
& thanks shafiq for accompany me today.

2009-03-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

hello! ♥
yesterday went to jes house sleep.
it was the worst night ever.
i wanted to sleep, she kept deesiao me.
each time when i was about to fall asleep,
she came to tickle me eh. ):
make me whole night jumping&screaming.
wonder why she no need sleep one.
after that finally, 6 plus in the morning she decided let me sleep.
then 9 plus she came to wake me up and tickle me again.
such a naughty stead.
but very cute uh. haha.
she told me i was about to enter viv's room.
then she come pull me back. LOL.
but i can't remember anything eh.
i only know i said i want go viv's room sleep.
because she keep tickle me.

anyway, watched the unborn yesterday.
the movie wasn't as nice as i thought.
almost fall asleep during the movie. O:
i think watching movie is a waste of money (sometimes).
watching horror movie = spending money to scare yourself.
okay, shall end here.
byebye ;D

2009-03-25T21:04:00.003+08:00

met cs kor in the morning for breakfast.
then school. nth much happen.
before sst went out of school look for jes.
after sst meet jes, and her friend.
eat at 768 with her.
everytime ppl will ask "you with jes and wh hor?"
standard sial.
almost everyone ask the same thing.
machiam i stick to them, cannot with others. LOL.
but true lah, i almost everyday with them. :D

2009-03-21T21:47:00.002+08:00

i have tried my best.
the choice was made by you.
i will respect it.
i know it was hard for you to choose.
haix. i don't know what to say alr.
i will keep that night as our memories.
at least we're still ~~friends~~ ganstead. ;D

2009-03-20T22:59:00.003+08:00

meet shafiq for breakfast.
then ask ppl help me buy things.
went to school for physics.
all the best to my test. -.-
i think i won't do well eh.
after school sent khairul home with shafiq.
then i went to alex house find him.
pig eh him keep sleep. lol.
then edsel come also.
then we slack slack.
and i went to meet jes and viv.
slack, had my lunch.
bus to look for shien.
slack slack, go cwp.
i bought and change ear stud. o;
slack and dinner.
slack again, fall asleep on jes de leg.
sleep for 10 min like that, thn i went home.

that's all for the day. :D

2009-03-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

14 March
meet jes, jon, wh.
so long didn't see jon alr.
thanks to him, we had a fun day.
he was at there high-ing.
as if he just came out from imh.
at night alex come find us a while then went off.
went to jes house sleep.

15 March
went back to malaysia home.
then go out, meet jes.
slack with her and had my dinner.

16 March
social etiquette.
then meet the usual ppl and slack.
no moood at all.
jes sent me home.
went home bathe then suddenly think of mingyong.
called him, he was at ang mo kio.
then he come yishun find me.
he helped me buy things.
then we went slacking around.
hxd treat me long island.
drink with him, then had heart-to-heart talk with him.
after talking to hxd, i felt so much better.
chatted so much with him.

17 March
until 5 plus i really can't take it.
i drop on hxd shoulder sleep. lol.
then wake up, we started to crap and joke.
i told him a lame joke, say half way he fall asleep.
he woke up at 7.30.
then i chiong back house change clothes.
then cab to school, just nice 8am, i'm not late.
after lesson, meet jes and hao.
pei jes take bus 969.
meet her friends.
i keep kena shoot by that guy.
then went walk walk with hao.
bused back to cwp meet shien and loojing.
jes come join us, then she sent me home again.

18 March
remedial, boring.
during break, eat with qutub.
then chatted with him about mine, his, and other ppl's things.
chem test was like gonecase to me.
shien and viv waited for me outside my class.
thanks to them uh.
waited for hao come out.
lunch at 768 mac.
then went viv and jes de house.
go 791 there slack.
chuin seng and his friend come meet us.
send viv to admiralty, then we go cs friend house there slack.
his other friends come, heard them talk about their past.
funny sial. then continue slack.
send jes back, continue slack with them for another 30 minutes.
then went 768 buy coke and go look for alex and his friends.
drink with them, think all drink till drop.
i can't remember what happened alr.

Today
sleep till afternoon 1 plus.
go meet jes.
eat lunch at 768, then went slack around.
bused back yishun take things then go back home.
that's all bah.

2009-03-13T14:44:00.002+08:00

family went oversea alr.
now i'm so free. :D
no one care about me.
want do what jiu do what. ;x

currently at shien's house.
tonight staying over at her house.
then will drink with her. ;D
nothing much to blog alr bah.
going out to meet jes.
bye.

finally, i've let go of the past.
yes, i used the word finally.
i can't believe what i did today.
i can actually don't look into your eyes.
:D

Mixed feelings - CLEARED.

2009-03-10T21:43:00.006+08:00

i was having this mixed feelings a few days ago.
tried so hard but still don't know where my heart gone to.
until today, i finally cleared everything.

you smiled to me today.
yes, it melts my heart again.
talking to you was the greatest thing that i like to do.
i shall keep everything of you in my past, in my heart.
i could still remember how we know each other.
and the first day we talked was on valentines day.
also, the first and only time we went out together.
but all this, will always be the past.
i've loved you too much.
too much until i'm tired alr.
seeing your eyes, prove to me everything.
i know we are not meant to be.
perharps i was just searching for the past feelings i had.
the feelings had faded i guess.
but in my heart, you will always be the one i've first met you.
the caring, cheerful, good-listener.

BIGBIG credits to low yee shien.
have been talking to her this few days.
in fact, she's there for me whenever i need her.
she just understands my heart so much.
sometimes even more that i do.
she helped me to clear and sort out things.
thanks lah, girl. x3
see, i used 'girl'.
sound so young ehs. :D
loves-

That feeling was still the strongest.

2009-03-07T15:18:00.003+08:00

Each time you smile, my heart melts.
your smile kills me.
what else more can i do.
i don't want to wait for you.
because i know i can't love you anymore.

my mind told me not to love you.
but my heart wanted me to love you.
how to tell my mind to stop loving you.
when my heart still does have the feeling.

all the false hope(s).
i can still remember what you said the day before.
the last sentence you told me.
it kills, it really do.
is it because i never have a chance.
or is it because i let my chance slip off.
no matter what you had did.
i just won't be angry at you.

please don't let me love you.
i don't want to fall so deep again.

ChenMingYong, ;D

2009-03-05T21:15:00.008+08:00

This post is specially dedicated to CHEN MINGYONG. :D
Happy HXD day! :D
today is our 2 years alr.
so fast uh, time flies.
so long didn't meet up with you luh.
don't always say meet up soon.
must really meet up k.
so much things for us to catch up on.
rahhh, hope to see you soon ar.
hao xiong di always.
i believe you are still the one who always understands me.
see you soon!
misses and loves!

PS: the black and white picture is edited by me. ;D

2009-03-03T21:14:00.002+08:00

2 March - Happy birthday, PWH.

went to meet shepherd today.
talked to her, she told me a lot of things.
keep thinking of many things.

God do everything for a reason.
i think most importantly, is our walk with God.
we should really walk right with Him.
sometimes, people may think God is not real.
for example, if our english result doesn't turn out well.
we may think that God didn't bless us.
that's why we get such a low marks.
but actually God gave us the low marks for a reason.
the reason can be because God thinks we are weak at that subject.
and want us to really work hard for it.
so at the end of the day we can do well.
He did everything for a reason.
afterall, He still love us. (:

it is very hard to accept someone you don't like.
but remember to love your enermy.
just like how God love us.
see, even though we are sinners.
God still love us.
so why do we have to hate someone?
why not just forgive everything and accept that person.
love everyone, because God also loves them.
and why do we have to judge people?
when in the first place, we are also not perfect.
no one is perfect in this world, except God.
if you judge other people, you will be judge too.
gossip, will it benefit you?
answer is no.
it will not extend the kingdom of God.
so what's the point of gossiping?

God, i will be ready for you to test me everyday.
i will walk right with You.
:D

2009-03-01T22:49:00.002+08:00

third post for the day.
i'm feeling so bored right now.
pet society cannot hack.
i running out of money alr.
currently not feeling well.
mentally and physically.
physically is i feel that i got fever.
but mummy say don't have.
then my stomach very pain for the whole day.
and i got sore throat.
now even swallow saliva also pain.
i'm half dead alr, save me. ):

thanks for all those friends who were there by my side.
they really helped me so much.
without their cheerings, i don't know how will i be now.
although afterall, i still don't know where my heart gone to.
but i know i got these few lovely friends is enough for me. ♥!

2009-03-01T15:17:00.004+08:00

作詞：陳鎮川
作曲：Vincent/Chow@Sense/蔡志浩

總是等到臉色有點蒼白
才突然想起桌上那袋隔夜的外賣
總是會在窗戶外開始泛白
才會發覺又發了一整晚的呆

突然看見路旁那棵樹不知何時開始枯
怎麼我總忘了留意天涼的速度
當歎息的時候呼出了白霧
才慢慢感到寒冷的溫度

這世界太快連愛都不例外
儘管我很努力想要跟上你的節拍
我慢慢明白以為的細心對待
卻根本不符合這個時代
怪自己慢了半拍

如果當初聽得出你開始生疏
我會為專注再多下一點功夫
總是慢步以為會更清楚
竟然錯過了倒數措手不及落幕

這世界太快連愛都不例外
儘管我很努力想要跟上你的節拍
我慢慢明白以為的細心對待
卻根本不符合這個時代
連難過都慢了半拍

拚命追著你太快的腳步卻在出口迷了路
竟也聽不到你的催促
當我還在對人炫耀你的依賴和我的愉快
原來我早默默被你淘汰

這世界太快連愛都不例外
儘管我很努力想要跟上你的節拍
我慢慢明白以為的細心對待
卻根本不符合這個時代
怪只怪我自己總慢了半拍
這世界太快就連愛都不例外
OH
我終於明白就連眼淚也都慢了半拍
我慢了半拍

infer from the video/lyrics.
this song just suits my feeling.

2009-03-01T00:00:00.004+08:00

hello everyone!
i changed blogskin alr.
try to use firefox view it.
i.explorer also can, just not so nice i think.

got back some common test paper.
overall, i'm satisfied with it.
left chem and physics result.
actually only scared of my chem paper.
because that day not feeling well.
then brain like not functioning.
after chem paper, everyone was like using "easy" to describe the paper.
but i think the paper is soso.
not too easy, not too difficult.

27 Feb;
happy birthday to Anthony Christopher Joseph Anthoniar Elizabeth Zong.
new name is no shhong?
otherwise known as Tan Bo Zong. :D

friday after school went to viv house.
dinner at their house, pasta.
then we went out luh.
viv went to town, left jes and me.
went to look for wh.
happened to saw him just outside the school.
then jes and me waited for him outside his house staircase there.
went to admiralty to buy things.
slacked.
around 10 plus bozong came.
thanks uh, birthday boy.
for treating me the duno what food.
used hand to eat, because uncle forget give chopstick.
around 12 like that, bz went off.
left the 3 of us again.
joked a lot, keep laughing at something.
then kinda boring alr.
i tried to entertain myself by telling story.
after finishing the story, we played the train game.
after that game, i really cannot take it luh.
straight away lie on the playground sleep. :x
rah, damn paiseh.
because only i sleep. -.-
woke up by them, went 768.
ate cup noodle after that.
vivian came a while, sent her home.
then slacked around admiralty there.
once i sit down, i start to sleep again.
all slept until 5 plus 6 plus i think.
then jes pei me take bus. x3
slept on her shoulder a while, so comfortable.
reached home i not sleepy alr.
used comp till noon.
nothing to do, went to sleep.
wake up at 11pm like that.
used comp again.

nothing to blog alr.
i'm bored. ):

pet society got 9 rooms eh! :D

2009-02-23T20:55:00.003+08:00

i kept asking people this question today.
被爱比较幸福 or 爱一个人比较幸福?
i used to think being loved by someone is more xing fu.
but i guess i'm wrong.
actually can follow your heart and love someone is more xing fu.
keep forcing yourself not to love someone is difficult.
if you can just let go of everything.
use your whole heart to love someone you want.
stop forcing yourself not to love someone.
this is then call xing fu.
it's actually very hard to force yourself not to love someone.
when your heart still does care for the person.
thus in conclusion, i feel that loving someone you want is the best!

but the world is very cruel.
sometimes things are just not meant to be.
it is not you love someone then can have happy ending.
sometimes, no matter how hard you have tried.
you just can't get a person's heart.
actually love is something very special.
you just need the person you love to be happy.
i guess that will be enough.
love doesn't mean to be together always.
as long as you follow your heart.
just do what you want, and make the person feels happy.
you will be happy toooooo. :D

rahh, i shall stop crapping.
i'm just being lame in my blog.
going to bathe sooon!
so motivated to bathe eh. ;x
cos my dad say after i bathe he will give me $30.
argh, i just love my parents so much.
yesterday they bought me tht polo shirt.
which cost RM 139 i think?
expensive siol.
but is worth it.
i'm addicted to branded stuff.
save me! ):
bye!